Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
the past 2 days...
have been unlike anything i had experience SLASH done in woodbridge, or virginia total.
since about 2pm yesterday, I hung out allllll day with chris & kara, until 11pm, and throughout that 9 hour period we have managed to do so much.
played sum ball, drove around, watched zoolander, had dinner at kara's house, went to howison to play, got back, watched tv, went to silver diner for deserts..in other words, a lotta shiznat was dunn.
but today, today was special. today was like the day. woke up nice 'n early at 9:30. ate some breakfast, and chris picks me up - we roll down over to kara's house and sit 'n wait for her best friend holly to come pick us up - because we're goin to the dc, to a natural history museum. she needed to go there for a projekt so we just tagged along.
we drive drive and drive in this living yellow spongebob of a car - i swear. spongebob everywhere! hahahahahaha!
then we try to find a parking space in vienna, since the metro station is there, and we're taking it.
'twas me fairst tiem! very fun...kara pulled out shiznaytload of these metro passes that we used to slide to enter. so like..mine didnt work, neither has holly's but kara's works - and the funny thing is, she used it and the thing is still open..so we just quickly sneak thru bwahahah. we stole! woohoo, thats not good.
oh man, and then it's just too much fun that i could write a whole essay about - but i'm just going to summarize. we get off at DC's national mall..which the conductor in the train calls the "Smith-a-sonian" which we get a laugh out of. It rains, we get wet. we make our way to the natural museum of history..and look around. go to the geology section and the girls work on their stuff while me and chris go and have fun imitatin' Antonio Montana..a political regufee..from COOBA. Wait you like DAT? you like DAT? Taka piss on ya!
anyway we go see the Best Photography which is right around the corner from Geology section.
we spend a good hour in there i'd say. get out and go back on the train/metro and oh man there was just sooo much crazy shit in between everything.
in the end we go to Fuddrucker's and i spell out my name for this dude who serves me and in the end he writes it Igoi. Wtf. Then we see one of the cashiers who serves poppin' one open and chuggin' it down.. .
then on the way home from fairfax we have toooooo much fun. too much, and on that note...get back to the program.
since about 2pm yesterday, I hung out allllll day with chris & kara, until 11pm, and throughout that 9 hour period we have managed to do so much.
played sum ball, drove around, watched zoolander, had dinner at kara's house, went to howison to play, got back, watched tv, went to silver diner for deserts..in other words, a lotta shiznat was dunn.
but today, today was special. today was like the day. woke up nice 'n early at 9:30. ate some breakfast, and chris picks me up - we roll down over to kara's house and sit 'n wait for her best friend holly to come pick us up - because we're goin to the dc, to a natural history museum. she needed to go there for a projekt so we just tagged along.
we drive drive and drive in this living yellow spongebob of a car - i swear. spongebob everywhere! hahahahahaha!
then we try to find a parking space in vienna, since the metro station is there, and we're taking it.
'twas me fairst tiem! very fun...kara pulled out shiznaytload of these metro passes that we used to slide to enter. so like..mine didnt work, neither has holly's but kara's works - and the funny thing is, she used it and the thing is still open..so we just quickly sneak thru bwahahah. we stole! woohoo, thats not good.
oh man, and then it's just too much fun that i could write a whole essay about - but i'm just going to summarize. we get off at DC's national mall..which the conductor in the train calls the "Smith-a-sonian" which we get a laugh out of. It rains, we get wet. we make our way to the natural museum of history..and look around. go to the geology section and the girls work on their stuff while me and chris go and have fun imitatin' Antonio Montana..a political regufee..from COOBA. Wait you like DAT? you like DAT? Taka piss on ya!
anyway we go see the Best Photography which is right around the corner from Geology section.
we spend a good hour in there i'd say. get out and go back on the train/metro and oh man there was just sooo much crazy shit in between everything.
in the end we go to Fuddrucker's and i spell out my name for this dude who serves me and in the end he writes it Igoi. Wtf. Then we see one of the cashiers who serves poppin' one open and chuggin' it down.. .
then on the way home from fairfax we have toooooo much fun. too much, and on that note...get back to the program.
Sunday, November 19, 2006
lately i've been feeling kinda strange...
Saturday, November 18, 2006
sat. 11/18: a fun day
so, today was pretty much nonstop fun.
today, yes today: at around 2am chris and i were on aim watching the ever-so-awesome promo trailer of 300 which was shown this year at san diego's comiccon festival, and i promise you - that this movie will own. based on another one of frank miller's graphic novels, and directed by Zack Snyder, director of the dawn of the dead remake.
300 promo trailer
anyway, we decided late at night that we wanna see this "gravedancers" movie that is one of these "horrorfest" over the weekend movie deals.
we go over to howison field first, at 1pm, or around that timeframe - we see that there are guys playing soccer, took up the whole field. so we just kicked around the ball a lil' bit on the sidelines and observed the game. whenever the half time - we'd use the goals. around 3-ish pm we roll over to the movie theatre, while listening to jack black saying "fuckin' cockeas!" bwahah, that never left my head today, i probably said that word over 50 times. "cockeas!" we buy the tix, and have like an hour and a half to chill before the movie. so since the mall is right there...we just go and walk in the mall. never seen so many people at the mall - usually we just go in the middle of the week so that explains why.
we go to books-a-million cuz that's like our little place we hang out. it's weird isn't it? of all the places in the mall, it's a book place - i love it.
so we just skim thru some of the graphic novel of 300 - lookin for the particular helmet POV shot pic in there, which i have no doubt will be in the final movie. speaking of which, there are so many frame-for-frame shots in the movie of 300 (that we have seen in the trailer) that are straight outta the graphic novel. no surprise, cos i read that snyder was going for that sin city approach rodriguez did.
so it's 3:45pm, and i tell we need to roll to the movie theatre. we roll - and get inside. take our seats - first of all i have to say that this felt like more of an outrageous tales of the crypt or masters of horror episode than a friggin' movie in itself. absolute comedy, we laughed more than we were scared. but these days pretty much nothing scares me in a movie: it's more of a cringe since such an outrageous amount of "torture" or "disgust" horror movies get released. the true horror films were made back in the 70's and 80's...the likes of John Carpenter's the thing or William Friedkin's the exorcist now those movies left a mark, and they're timeless horror classics.
anyway, what i'm saying is, this wasn't worth the 8.50 i paid, but alas i had a great time crackin up w/ chris, oh man i haven't laughed like that in a movie theatre since probably 2004.
after we come out, i suggest we sneak in to see another flick...we walk 'n walk and decide we wanna see borat...and yes, we did see borat.
i didn't laugh as much as i did w/ gravedancers..but it's for a whole another reason. it was more of a fun interesting experience for me, observing the "actual" americans. especially in the first few minutes where he's in the metro, that showed pretty much what i already knew. i love the movie, and it's definitely true what sacha baron cohen said in an interview i read; the joke is on the PEOPLE who think that what they see and hear in that movie is real truth about both the country, and the people borat represents. a lot of scenes made me either shocked, or awed (where my mouth was literally opened while i stared at the screen)
after the film was finished, chris drove me home, i ate a sandwich, listened to some plump dj's, played countrer strike source that i preloaded last night, and now i'm finishing up writing this as i listen to the last song of dj krush's "kemuri" on his mixtape code4109
today, yes today: at around 2am chris and i were on aim watching the ever-so-awesome promo trailer of 300 which was shown this year at san diego's comiccon festival, and i promise you - that this movie will own. based on another one of frank miller's graphic novels, and directed by Zack Snyder, director of the dawn of the dead remake.
300 promo trailer
anyway, we decided late at night that we wanna see this "gravedancers" movie that is one of these "horrorfest" over the weekend movie deals.
we go over to howison field first, at 1pm, or around that timeframe - we see that there are guys playing soccer, took up the whole field. so we just kicked around the ball a lil' bit on the sidelines and observed the game. whenever the half time - we'd use the goals. around 3-ish pm we roll over to the movie theatre, while listening to jack black saying "fuckin' cockeas!" bwahah, that never left my head today, i probably said that word over 50 times. "cockeas!" we buy the tix, and have like an hour and a half to chill before the movie. so since the mall is right there...we just go and walk in the mall. never seen so many people at the mall - usually we just go in the middle of the week so that explains why.
we go to books-a-million cuz that's like our little place we hang out. it's weird isn't it? of all the places in the mall, it's a book place - i love it.
so we just skim thru some of the graphic novel of 300 - lookin for the particular helmet POV shot pic in there, which i have no doubt will be in the final movie. speaking of which, there are so many frame-for-frame shots in the movie of 300 (that we have seen in the trailer) that are straight outta the graphic novel. no surprise, cos i read that snyder was going for that sin city approach rodriguez did.
so it's 3:45pm, and i tell we need to roll to the movie theatre. we roll - and get inside. take our seats - first of all i have to say that this felt like more of an outrageous tales of the crypt or masters of horror episode than a friggin' movie in itself. absolute comedy, we laughed more than we were scared. but these days pretty much nothing scares me in a movie: it's more of a cringe since such an outrageous amount of "torture" or "disgust" horror movies get released. the true horror films were made back in the 70's and 80's...the likes of John Carpenter's the thing or William Friedkin's the exorcist now those movies left a mark, and they're timeless horror classics.
anyway, what i'm saying is, this wasn't worth the 8.50 i paid, but alas i had a great time crackin up w/ chris, oh man i haven't laughed like that in a movie theatre since probably 2004.
after we come out, i suggest we sneak in to see another flick...we walk 'n walk and decide we wanna see borat...and yes, we did see borat.
i didn't laugh as much as i did w/ gravedancers..but it's for a whole another reason. it was more of a fun interesting experience for me, observing the "actual" americans. especially in the first few minutes where he's in the metro, that showed pretty much what i already knew. i love the movie, and it's definitely true what sacha baron cohen said in an interview i read; the joke is on the PEOPLE who think that what they see and hear in that movie is real truth about both the country, and the people borat represents. a lot of scenes made me either shocked, or awed (where my mouth was literally opened while i stared at the screen)
after the film was finished, chris drove me home, i ate a sandwich, listened to some plump dj's, played countrer strike source that i preloaded last night, and now i'm finishing up writing this as i listen to the last song of dj krush's "kemuri" on his mixtape code4109
Friday, November 17, 2006
preloading_
i am lazy to write anything else.
no movie night tonight / maybe tomorrow.
i've been listening to dj krush for the past hour or so
his music consists of hip hop, but it's unlike any beats you have heard. it's very abstract and ambient influenced. melodic and surreal are the words i'd choose to describe. so far i have two of his releases; zen and a mixtape code4109
dj krush - song 1 [ link ] and here's a song for reference
Monday, November 13, 2006
pick 6 words to describe my personality
i just came across this very interesting thing called the johari window which it says was
whoever from my real friends who know me personally checks the blog, I ask you to go to this link and take a minute, or two of your time and choose 6 words that describe me. This will be interesting, as I wonder what the different results will be like for each person that knows me.
CLICK HERE TO DESCRIBE ME
"...invented by Joseph Luft and Harrington Ingham in the 1950s as a model for mapping personality awareness. By describing yourself from a fixed list of adjectives, then asking your friends and colleagues to describe you from the same list, a grid of overlap and difference can be built up."
whoever from my real friends who know me personally checks the blog, I ask you to go to this link and take a minute, or two of your time and choose 6 words that describe me. This will be interesting, as I wonder what the different results will be like for each person that knows me.
Sunday, November 12, 2006
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Saturday, November 11, 2006
a familiar feeling...
today is the kind of day that i have experienced before many times throughout my life. the weather, the wind, the sun and the clear sky...all remind me of all those moments in life that I've had this feeling. It's probably my most missed feeling ever. words cannot explain it. you have to feel that wind blowing through the opened window of your room, that warm weather and that beautiful sunlight outside to fully grasp the feeling i am talking about.
it even makes me forget about all the things that i have going on at the moment and instead fills up my soul with just the good thoughts and optimistic thoughts about the future.
no i'm not getting sappy, i'm talking about just how great i'm feeling here
it even makes me forget about all the things that i have going on at the moment and instead fills up my soul with just the good thoughts and optimistic thoughts about the future.
no i'm not getting sappy, i'm talking about just how great i'm feeling here
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Akcent - Kylie
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
rndm
Socr Maniak 3: holy shit!
Socr Maniak 3: guess what
InVinCibLeX17: did uget that
InVinCibLeX17: what?
InVinCibLeX17: the
InVinCibLeX17: fuck
InVinCibLeX17: happened
InVinCibLeX17: !
InVinCibLeX17: ?
InVinCibLeX17: ;-)
Socr Maniak 3: my brother's at howison
Socr Maniak 3: right now
InVinCibLeX17: OMG
InVinCibLeX17: lets GO
Socr Maniak 3: yeah
InVinCibLeX17: i'll change
Socr Maniak 3: i'm gonna get my shit ready
Socr Maniak 3: hahaha
InVinCibLeX17: me too
InVinCibLeX17: LMAO
InVinCibLeX17: rofl
Monday, November 06, 2006
cut chemist - the garden
"...with more musical numbers that offer plenty of substance once the "wow" factor has played itself out. Best of the latter is the luscious, Astrud Gilberto-borrowing "Garden," which falls somewhere between Zero 7 and Bill Laswell's worldbeat mashing..."
cut chemist - the garden (6:16)
http://www.yousendit.com/transfer.php?action=download&ufid=DA4FBD9B6C2F741A
Sunday, November 05, 2006
the d.c. trip
ha! that was uber awesometastically fun today!
i was woken up by a call at around 10:40am by my cousin sasha from Ukraine today! we spoke for about 5 mins, and then I played GTA san andreas for about 20 mins, but felt too tired to continue so I went back to sleep - which did not really last long as I got up and put on my clothes and turned on the computer. Listened to music, burned a cd for the trip..bunch of coldplay b-sides and live stuff/white stripes.
around 12 o'clock hassan comes over and we go over jeff's house, we pick him up, get gas and go on to DC! woohoo, while listening to the 2004 hip hop comilation cd i made of all the old skool rap.
we arrived at around 1pm, and went to the freer art museum, we didn't spend a lot of time there, we looked at a biblical exhibit, and looked at some statues and stuff, unfortunately there were no greek nor roman art that we are currently going over in our art appreciation class. so, we go out of the museum, but we're still not finished. we decide to go to the museum of african art. but before that - we decided to eat some of that great persian rice w/ chicken that hassan's mom had made for us. the fun part was the fact that we ate outside of the museum, right across our car as all people walked by, but we didn't care. great experience there. so as we finish our food, we go over to the museum, and spend some time there, didn't find a lot of things we were looking for and left. after that we go out of the museum and walk over south...through this interesting street that was elevated, it crosses a highway that goes eastbound, there is a fountain at the end of this road and it overlooks Alexandria, and it's a nice sight as you can see all the planes touching down and taking off, you can also hear this enormous roar of the jet engines as planes take off.
if you look down to the potomac river, there's this plethora of seafood restaurants right by the shores of it, we decided to make our way down there. i mentioned how it reminded me of a place somewhere on the north east US, like martha's vineyard, and all those other places.
we spoke for a little while down by the rail that overlooked potomac, such as about how we like to travel on airplanes, and the overall excitement. jeff revealed how he had never been on a commercial airline before. and hassan mentioned how from 2001-2004 he traveled almost 4 times a week all over US. then he mentioned this girl he once met on an airplane and had a nice chat w/ her.
we made our way back to the car and drove closer to the heart of dc, the white house.
took us a while to find a parking spot, but we did. i said how i had never been to
this memorial
so, we make our way towards it!
right: hassan / left: jeff
there i took a few pics and we circled the memorial once, we found out all the tickets had been sold for today so we did not get a chance to go up to the roof of it.
i suggested we track to lincoln memorial - everyone agreed, so we went. on the way we walked through the newly opened world war II memorial that was at the end of the lake that extends its way from lincoln memorial. took a few nice shots there, and we walked towards the memorial.
right next to the lake, not on the sidewalks.
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we spent a few minutes inside the memorial (second time now for me) and walked back, as it was getting dark we felt that was it for today.
da man himself
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so, on the way back - we listen to coldplay's b-sides and live stuff as this beautiful sun is setting down and vibrant orange red colors appear in the sky!
it was such a relaxing moment driving back home. i felt like all my worries disintegrated into molecules. jeff was. out. poor fella had a long day tagging along with us, so it is no wonder why sleep took over his mind.
all i can say is that, this is why staying at home is just a waste of time if you have nothing else to do. my belief is that we need to be outside and not inside. if every friend is up for a trip to somewhere? i absolutely don't deny that i will go. we now agreed that we are going to be going places as a getaway from our daily mundane lives - which i think everybody needs to do once in a while IF and WHEN they have FREE time.
i was woken up by a call at around 10:40am by my cousin sasha from Ukraine today! we spoke for about 5 mins, and then I played GTA san andreas for about 20 mins, but felt too tired to continue so I went back to sleep - which did not really last long as I got up and put on my clothes and turned on the computer. Listened to music, burned a cd for the trip..bunch of coldplay b-sides and live stuff/white stripes.
around 12 o'clock hassan comes over and we go over jeff's house, we pick him up, get gas and go on to DC! woohoo, while listening to the 2004 hip hop comilation cd i made of all the old skool rap.
we arrived at around 1pm, and went to the freer art museum, we didn't spend a lot of time there, we looked at a biblical exhibit, and looked at some statues and stuff, unfortunately there were no greek nor roman art that we are currently going over in our art appreciation class. so, we go out of the museum, but we're still not finished. we decide to go to the museum of african art. but before that - we decided to eat some of that great persian rice w/ chicken that hassan's mom had made for us. the fun part was the fact that we ate outside of the museum, right across our car as all people walked by, but we didn't care. great experience there. so as we finish our food, we go over to the museum, and spend some time there, didn't find a lot of things we were looking for and left. after that we go out of the museum and walk over south...through this interesting street that was elevated, it crosses a highway that goes eastbound, there is a fountain at the end of this road and it overlooks Alexandria, and it's a nice sight as you can see all the planes touching down and taking off, you can also hear this enormous roar of the jet engines as planes take off.
if you look down to the potomac river, there's this plethora of seafood restaurants right by the shores of it, we decided to make our way down there. i mentioned how it reminded me of a place somewhere on the north east US, like martha's vineyard, and all those other places.
we spoke for a little while down by the rail that overlooked potomac, such as about how we like to travel on airplanes, and the overall excitement. jeff revealed how he had never been on a commercial airline before. and hassan mentioned how from 2001-2004 he traveled almost 4 times a week all over US. then he mentioned this girl he once met on an airplane and had a nice chat w/ her.
we made our way back to the car and drove closer to the heart of dc, the white house.
took us a while to find a parking spot, but we did. i said how i had never been to
so, we make our way towards it!
right: hassan / left: jeff
there i took a few pics and we circled the memorial once, we found out all the tickets had been sold for today so we did not get a chance to go up to the roof of it.
partners in crime
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hassan
jeff
i suggested we track to lincoln memorial - everyone agreed, so we went. on the way we walked through the newly opened world war II memorial that was at the end of the lake that extends its way from lincoln memorial. took a few nice shots there, and we walked towards the memorial.
right next to the lake, not on the sidewalks.
----------
we spent a few minutes inside the memorial (second time now for me) and walked back, as it was getting dark we felt that was it for today.
da man himself
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so, on the way back - we listen to coldplay's b-sides and live stuff as this beautiful sun is setting down and vibrant orange red colors appear in the sky!
it was such a relaxing moment driving back home. i felt like all my worries disintegrated into molecules. jeff was. out. poor fella had a long day tagging along with us, so it is no wonder why sleep took over his mind.
all i can say is that, this is why staying at home is just a waste of time if you have nothing else to do. my belief is that we need to be outside and not inside. if every friend is up for a trip to somewhere? i absolutely don't deny that i will go. we now agreed that we are going to be going places as a getaway from our daily mundane lives - which i think everybody needs to do once in a while IF and WHEN they have FREE time.
Saturday, November 04, 2006
so
it seems that i like to procrastinate. a lot
since chris dropped me off home at around 5:30-ish, the only thing i got done was finished the poetry responses for eng class, and i need to get the journal finished..wow and both of those assignments were due last week. Oh snap.
today was fun at howison again, it's so awesome there. we got there around 2pm, and stayed there til around 5pm, we once again practice the bouncing the ball, some techniques, passing, and btwn games shot at the goal. met this one cool dude once again who was there last week too. i think that, from now on whenever i have nothing to do..howison field is the place to be. it's so much better being out in the nature than home in front of comp.
right now i'm listening to some blonde redhead. very good muzack.
i also called ellie today, she didn't pick up the phone but then she called back a few minutes ago, and we spoke for 7 mins - she was planning the museum trip on tuesday, but i told her she can come with us tomorrow and she said that the museum thing is more important so she might reconsider and come with us. she'll let me know tomorrow when she calls.
since chris dropped me off home at around 5:30-ish, the only thing i got done was finished the poetry responses for eng class, and i need to get the journal finished..wow and both of those assignments were due last week. Oh snap.
today was fun at howison again, it's so awesome there. we got there around 2pm, and stayed there til around 5pm, we once again practice the bouncing the ball, some techniques, passing, and btwn games shot at the goal. met this one cool dude once again who was there last week too. i think that, from now on whenever i have nothing to do..howison field is the place to be. it's so much better being out in the nature than home in front of comp.
right now i'm listening to some blonde redhead. very good muzack.
i also called ellie today, she didn't pick up the phone but then she called back a few minutes ago, and we spoke for 7 mins - she was planning the museum trip on tuesday, but i told her she can come with us tomorrow and she said that the museum thing is more important so she might reconsider and come with us. she'll let me know tomorrow when she calls.
3 / 4
last night was like the coolest thing.
3 movies in a row at chris's house + pizza and floor slides!!! and that gay referee video.
watched The Descent, Hard Candy, and Hostel all in one sitting. jeff came with me. we left at about 12:15am on the 4th.
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now, chris and i decided we're going to howison field to play practice some football (european)
and we're gonna swing by ellie's work so i can find out whether she wants to go to the museum tomorrow for art class.
-ig
3 movies in a row at chris's house + pizza and floor slides!!! and that gay referee video.
watched The Descent, Hard Candy, and Hostel all in one sitting. jeff came with me. we left at about 12:15am on the 4th.
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now, chris and i decided we're going to howison field to play practice some football (european)
and we're gonna swing by ellie's work so i can find out whether she wants to go to the museum tomorrow for art class.
-ig
Friday, November 03, 2006
home.
just returned from chris's house. spent my time there since almost 7pm. great time to hang out...reminded me a lot of the time i used to hang out at alex's, and tom's houses during summer.
i met chris' family, who were very nice people. had dinner over there and an overall nice time - in a while.
now i am home, listening to coldplay - high speed...
and ellie is on right now (well, idle) but at least it makes me feel good seeing her sn on there =)
tomorrow is movie night at chris's house. at 6pm we're there..it's gonna be the descent, hostel and hard candy =) we'll watch 2 movies minimum.
i think being over at chris's house really kind of cleared my head for a moment there, it's definitely a change from my usual mundane, routine every day here. plus it helped clear the thoughts like i already said.
nice escapism what i call this.
currently: coldplay - trouble
i met chris' family, who were very nice people. had dinner over there and an overall nice time - in a while.
now i am home, listening to coldplay - high speed...
and ellie is on right now (well, idle) but at least it makes me feel good seeing her sn on there =)
tomorrow is movie night at chris's house. at 6pm we're there..it's gonna be the descent, hostel and hard candy =) we'll watch 2 movies minimum.
i think being over at chris's house really kind of cleared my head for a moment there, it's definitely a change from my usual mundane, routine every day here. plus it helped clear the thoughts like i already said.
nice escapism what i call this.
currently: coldplay - trouble
Thursday, November 02, 2006
trouble...
Oh no, I see
The spider web is tangled up with me
And I lost my head
And thought of all the stupid things I'd said
Oh no, what's this?
A spider web and I'm caught in the middle
So I turn to run
And thought of all the stupid things I'd done
And I never meant to cause you trouble
I never meant to do you wrong
And ah, well if I ever caused you trouble
Oh, no I never meant to do you harm
Oh no, I see
The spider web and it's me in the middle
So I twist and turn
But here am I in my little bubble
Singing out
I never meant to cause you trouble
I never meant to do you wrong
And ah, well if I ever caused you trouble
Oh, no I never meant to do you harm
They spun a web for me
They spun a web for me
They spun a web for me
i think this is my current state of mind.
tired and...
...new idea.
from now on, i'm doing homework EARLY. that was such a long read, man. I had to read 3 articles for US History in the book, about various things. and the class is tomorrow that's why it's so intense.
i was about to fall asleep right there 'n then...but then I got through it, sometimes i thought of ellie and how i can never make myself feel 'open' when i'm around her..but - ahhh..i don't know how to feel either.
currently: spoon wizard - me and spoonice [blue effet mix]
what else was I going to say?
hmm, well oh yea!
do you ever feel like you can't go a day without seeing your friends? it is like that for me, recently..and more often now. I can never feel good anymore being alone. I feel the need for human interaction and communication. I desperately want to get out of my house every day. I have made a few friends in the dale city area, one of them is jeff lives very close, less than 5 minute drive..and there's also chris lives a little further away. they're not too far, yet I feel like i need to see each of these people everyday, every minute. i feel so - alone, there's this feeling of loneliness that is stemming from me and i can't explain.
i try to preoccupy myself with music and movies, but that does not help much. i need to get out and photograph, and i...
i can't even explain myself right here. it's so bad that it's gone to that point where no words can describe my feelings now.
unfortunately.
wish i had a person close to me i could share all my feelings with.
from now on, i'm doing homework EARLY. that was such a long read, man. I had to read 3 articles for US History in the book, about various things. and the class is tomorrow that's why it's so intense.
i was about to fall asleep right there 'n then...but then I got through it, sometimes i thought of ellie and how i can never make myself feel 'open' when i'm around her..but - ahhh..i don't know how to feel either.
currently: spoon wizard - me and spoonice [blue effet mix]
what else was I going to say?
hmm, well oh yea!
do you ever feel like you can't go a day without seeing your friends? it is like that for me, recently..and more often now. I can never feel good anymore being alone. I feel the need for human interaction and communication. I desperately want to get out of my house every day. I have made a few friends in the dale city area, one of them is jeff lives very close, less than 5 minute drive..and there's also chris lives a little further away. they're not too far, yet I feel like i need to see each of these people everyday, every minute. i feel so - alone, there's this feeling of loneliness that is stemming from me and i can't explain.
i try to preoccupy myself with music and movies, but that does not help much. i need to get out and photograph, and i...
i can't even explain myself right here. it's so bad that it's gone to that point where no words can describe my feelings now.
unfortunately.
wish i had a person close to me i could share all my feelings with.
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